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The moment I stopped lying to men, it was a moment when I stopped lying to myself. In the dramatic sense, “not lie”. I was not spinning the stories or not dramaing someone who was not me. But i Was Editing. The edges are stagnant. Avoid difficult truths: I want to get married. I want to have children. I want a relationship that feels like a partnership, not performing. It turns out that the clarity I was afraid of was a very foundation of deliberate dating. And this was the shift I did not need.
For a long time, I thought such honesty would scare someone. That it was too much, very soon. So i bowed down ChillyI dated the door with one leg. I allow things to be “naturally”, which is often seen to have a dynamic drive while I nodded, while showing that it did not matter.
But what I have learned here: deliberate dating-the way clarity, honesty and self-esteem is required-not to scare anyone. This is about to make sure that the right people live.
In the last several months, I have started dating like a woman like a woman, the kind of woman I want to live in a relationship: clear on her values, and fearless to speak. Here it looks like that questions helped me guide me, and how much honesty (with both men and myself) has changed the way my date.
Image painted by Christon Kilpatrick.
Mentality shift that changed everything
Honesty is not much. This is the most respectable thing that you can give.
For years, I tried to agree on everyone. I did not speak when I felt disappointed. I laugh to get an injury or brushing a red flag, assuring myself that I will find it needy or dramatic to say something. I thought that keeping silent made me easy to stay around-Claim-Rakhrakhak, the kind of girl did not care much. But I cared. And finally, the disconnect – what I felt and what I expressed, I started to eat myself away. It was not just about men I was dating. It was about the way I was trained to believe that I was made less cute than needs, preferences, or expectations.
What I have learned is that honesty is not an obligation, it is a filter. I got immediate relief when I stopped stopping myself to fit someone else’s thought. To say that what I wanted did not make dating more complex – it simplified it. I was not thinking what someone else was thinking because I was very busy paying attention to how I felt. There is a calm power in getting direct, telling someone who you are and what you are seeing. Not because you need a guarantee, but because clarity is kind to both people.
Intentionally dating means what you want
You do not need a 10 -year plan, but you need to be honest about the direction you are going.
For a long time, I thought that what I wanted would implicate me in it. If I said that I want to get married, it would mean that I have to pursue it with urgency? If I admitted that I want a child, would anyone take it as a timeline instead of a truth? But as it is revealed, it is not to tighten clarity – this is liberation. Intentionally dating does not mean maping your future for marriage hashtag. This means to be honest with yourself about the normal direction you are going in. Once I stopped judging myself for something serious, I could actually relax in this process. I could show without performance, without any continuity the need to prove that I was cool with something casual when I was not.
If you are not sure what deliberately dating for you, it can be worth sitting with some questions: I want a partner or I am just craving the connection? Do I want to build life with someone or do I just like someone? Am I a pioneer with my needs, or am I constantly scanning for them? There are no wrong answers, only honest. The point is not to come to a conclusion overnight, but to practice tuning, so that you can stop dating reactivly and start dating with intentions.
Script that helped me speak (without oversight)
How I learned what I want, to wait for it to be selected instead.
There is a subtle terror that can crawl on the first date, especially when things feel promising. You want to say the right thing. You want to be open, but not intense, not honest but heavy. For a while, I misunderstood the vulnerability for overhering. I thought that if I had let someone go inside very quickly, they would have gone. But what I have felt is that to clearly communicate does not mean spread everything. This means anchoring in your own values and sharing them with intentions.
These days, I think it’s less that someone draws in and more as a limit: here I am where I am. Can you meet me here?
I have found that some well -kept phrases can change everything. They do not have to do heavy or rehearsal – they just need to be true. I have said such things: “I’m dating with intentions right now. How about you?” Or, “I’m not in a crowd, but I am not dating it either.” One of my favorite is: “I have learned to be honest – it saves everyone time.” These lines are not scripts to distribute completely. They are invitations: for a real interaction, for clarity, for connection. When I stopped trying to be selected and started choosing how I want to show, dating got very little misleading and much more fun.
I stopped committing chemistry wrong for compatibility
Just because it feels good this does not mean that it is correct.
For most of my twenty -seventh condition, I let the chemistry call the shots. If we had a banquet, if we kept talking all night, if that electricity, inexplicable bridges, then I think it was to do it Meaning Some. And sometimes did this. But more often, it meant that I was swept away in the high and ignored everything else. I misunderstood enthusiasm for alignment, attraction for intentions. I stayed in situations for a very long time, which looked like love, but lacked foundation to develop it.
Intentionally learning to feel one of the gifts of dating. Compatibility feels safe, stable, mutual. It makes it slowly and does not hing how many butterflies you get in the first hour. These days, I closely pay attention to the green flags: Does this person asks a follow -up question? Are they emotionally available, or are just emotionally clear? Are they curious about my life how do I make them feel? The more I have wanted myself in a partner, the easier it is to walk away from chemistry that does not come with continuity.
The most important relationship is still one with itself
Handle honesty with men begins with radical honesty with me.
Intentionally dating has brought me closer to others, but more importantly it has brought me close to me. The more I have practiced showing with clarity and self-respect, the more I am able to notice when I do not feel good, even if it looks good on paper.
I am less interested in whether someone chooses me and more curious how I feel in their presence. Do I shrink or be soft? Do I feel more less? This kind of self-awareness does not come from a moment of feeling-it comes from repeated attention.
At the end of the day, dating is never about finding someone else. It is about choosing who you are. Every time I said what I mean, then I went away when I was not being fulfilled, or was misunderstood in the name of being real, I have trusted myself. This is the relationship that I am the most committed to save. And quite funny, when you treat your heart with that kind of care, it becomes very easy to identify when someone else is ready to do so.
Last Note: Has intentionally Dating has taught me
The more I honored what I really want, the less I felt the need to perform. Intentionally dating has not made me more rigorous – it has made me more open to softened, more curious, love that does not require assurance or contradiction. It has been taught me that clarity is not an enemy of romance. This is the soil where the actual relationship increases.
The truth is that being honest will not be able to scare the right person. And even if it does? This is worth the information. Because the goal is not to be selected – it has to choose itself first, and then see who gets up to meet you.
